Bluets by Maggie Nelson: A (brief) Review

“Suppose I were to begin by saying that I had fallen in love with a color. Suppose I were to speak this as though it were a confession; suppose I shredded my napkin as we spoke. It began slowly. An appreciation, an affinity. Then, one day, it became more serious. Then(looking into an empty teacup, its bottom stained with thin brown excrement coiled into the shape of a sea horse) it became somehow personal.”

     Bluets is a semi-autobiographical collection of 240 prose poems reflecting on love, heartbreak, depression, grief (the subject here is her friend who became paralyzed in an accident), sex (her erotic obsession with an ex- lover, the mysterious “Prince of Blue”), etc. portrayed through Nelson’s fondness of the color blue. In her book, she explores her loneliness in her own prose as well as the words of other writers, philosophers thoughts on the color theory, and researchers’ study of the color spectrum.

Her musings are thought-inducing while still retaining the beauty of language that is found in poetry. Though the numbered thoughts may seem fragmented at first glance, they are anything but disconnected. Her writing is some of the most colorful (pun sort of intended) and entrancing I’ve read. My short little review doesn’t do this stunning book nearly as much justice as it deserves, so you’ll either have to take my word for it or read it yourself (I recommend the former).

“71. I have been trying for some time now, to find dignity in my loneliness. I have been finding this hard to do….75. Mostly I have felt myself becoming a servant of sadness. I am still looking for the beauty in that.”

 

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Diary Of An Oxygen Thief by ANONYMOUS

“I liked hurting girls. Mentally, not physically. I never hit a girl in my life. Well, once. But that was a mistake. I’ll tell you about it later. The thing is, I got off on it. I really enjoyed it. It’s like when you hear serial killers say they feel no regret, no remorse for all the people they killed. I was like that. Loved it. I didn’t care how long it took either, because I was in no hurry. I’d wait until they were totally in love with me. Till the big saucer eyes were looking at me. I loved the shock on their faces. Then the glaze as they tried to hide how much I was hurting them. And it was legal. I think I killed a few of them. Their souls, I mean. It was their souls I was after. I know I came close a couple of times. But don’t worry, I got my comeuppance. That’s why I’m telling you this. Justice was done. Balance has been restored. The same Thing happened to me, only worse. Worse because it happened to me. I feel purged now, you see. Cleansed. I’ve been punished, so it’s okay to talk about it all. At least that’s how it seems to me.”

Absolutely fantastic. I love his brutal honesty. It’s exhilarating and terrifying all at the same time. I would highly recommend this book to anyone. It’s a quick and worth while read.